迷茫

  这几天天气不好，一直在下雨，外面灰蒙蒙的！就像YH说的那样天下雨让人感觉前途一片渺茫！前几天在读者上看到一个笑话，大概意思就是“本科毕业的时候找不到好的工作，我选择了读研；今天硕士毕业了，找不到好工作，我选择了读博；不知道三年以后我会不会后悔六年前的选择”。看了以后觉得很心酸，我自己也有读博的打算，我也很害怕自己以后也会有相同的遭遇！

   我每天都很忙，早上起来取读英语，然后去实验室，看程序，看论文或者其它跟专业相关的东西，很少看电影，因为觉得在实验室里看电影是对实验室的不敬，要是在寝室我可以看通宵。这个学期也到尾巴上了，要说最大的收获应该就是我坚持学习英语，我相信自己是每天都在进步的！

   昨天看了咱们CSDN上共享的IT解惑圣经，很有感触。因为自己的研究方向就是嵌入式软件，肖老师在文中提到了要做好嵌入式软件就应该学好计算机系统结构，计算机组成原理，数据结构，数字电路，模拟电路以及汇编语言方面的知识，看到这里我倍受打击，因为我这几门课都不咋的，特别是电路那一块。

   我们学校研一的课程我觉得是鸡肋，没去上觉得很失落，去上了又觉得没学到什么东西。很惭愧，研一这第一个学期我所翘掉的课比我大学四年翘得都多！计算机数学基础听不懂，其它课程马马虎虎。最大的感受是研究生就是自己搞，完全靠自觉，老板不会成天盯着你的！更何况偶的老板在北京，而我却在这个他随时都会遗忘的角落里。

    我时刻在告诉自己不要放松，每一天都要有计划！在俱乐部学到了几句时刻激励我的句子，在此与大家共勉：

     I don't want to let my country down, I don't ever want to let my parents down. Most importantly, I don't want to let myself down. I must absolutely responsible for myself.

     Just for today , I will have a program.  I maybe not follow it exactly, but I will have it! I must save myself from hurry and indecision!

     If you want to sure of success, you have to make sure that you study every day, you improve yourself every day, you make progress every day. Your success depends on your commitment. If you pour your heart and soul into what you do , you're sure to success.

     Yesterday is a memory, tomorrow is a dream , live for today! I hope we will try our best to use our unique talents to make today productive and fruitful. We can't worry about your mistakes of yesterday. You should not waste your energy worrying about what will happen tomorrow. The only thing we can control is what we have today, make the most use of today and we will win everything.

     Everyday is a gift. Even days that are difficult or days you feel down. Appreciate every day; learn something new. Do something to improve yourself everyday.

     Don't let your dreams die. Don't waste time. Just do it. Life is too short to waste even one single day.